They were called to serve!

     Over the years I have seen missionaries come and go but not really had any that were close to me. Now I am fortunate to have TWO missionaries serving missions, and let me tell you it has been an emotional rollercoaster! My cousin Kyle just left the MTC this week and is serving in Oregon, and so far as I have read is having an amazing time! He was also very lucky to make it on Deseret News (so jealous!) My other cousin Connor (who I am closer with) is still in the MTC, and very soon will be serving in Mexico. As I watched Connor give his farewell talk and give his goodbyes, tears were streaming down all of our cheeks! That weekend I felt closer with him than usual, but as always his warm spirit made me smile. As long as I can remember Connor has been a great example to me. He is even the district leader in the MTC! Every week I look forward to reading all of his emails, and the wonderful experiences he is having so far. The even better part is he includes audio clips of him and his companions of anything and everything! I had the opportunity to write one of the missionaries in his district named Elder Tippetts! As I was writing him my aunt says, "I could be helping you find your future husband!" So with all excitement I wrote this letter with all the enthusiasm and girlyness I had in me. My eyes come to find out... lets just says Elder Tippetts is not the one for me, but I'm still glad I got the chance to write him since at the time had not been written yet. Today in Sunday School we watched a video, and in it a missionary was leaving to the airport, and I started to tear when it was just a video! Then I realized something about myself today that pertains to missionaries, I don't think I could ever watch one leave from to the airport or MTC! Watching them give their farewell talk is more than enough tears in itself, but watching them actually leave is.. I cant even explain how emotional that sounds! But another reason missionaries have been more of on my tender side is because, I am so happy Connor and Kyle made the decision to serve missions, but I also do miss them! At family gatherings it sometimes feel like a tiny part is missing. But I really do love my missionaries and the work their doing!
     Also while in Utah(which is my favorite place ever; but that's another post), I realized something else.... We are all growing up so fast! It seems like yesterday we were all getting dirty head to toe at our cabin(who am I joking we still do that), and watching each other get baptized and soon as we know it were all going to get married. Its crazy how fast time flies, but it reminded me to cherish all the memories and moments my cousins and I share together.

-XoXo~
Alexis

I refuse to sink

Yes, I realize its been awhile since I have posted, I'm not even sure if anyone even reads my blog, but it has great self worth and lets you type and type what words cannot sometimes describe. As we grow older we seem to realize how we are as individuals, I'd say its apart of one of those "teenage years" things that we have to deal with. Well I have grown over these years, I have come to realize who I am as a daughter of God and as an individual. There are a couple of things I've come to conclude that have helped build the structure ME!

• The only opinions that should matter, are myself, the spirits, and my family. Of course I take into consideration those who are close with me, but ultimately I make decisions for myself, and what the best is for me. I should not let others words or comments hurt me in the inside and out, just to simply ignore them. The only person I can be is myself, and that is the best person I could ever be.
• Everyone in my life is either a reason, season or lifetime. In student council, a poem was shared with all of us that really made me think of the people in my life, and their purpose. I'll share it with you know, it's long, but worth it, so take a second and read ;)

Reason, Season, or Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.     When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
     Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
     Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
     LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

• I cannot expect happiness to come in a little shiny box at a door, I have to create my own happiness and make the best of life's situations.
• Unfortunately, I cannot determine the future and what situations happen to me. Yet, that does not mean I have to let life go and give, I should keep trying.
• I should not let my insecurities bother me, yes, I am not the prettiest or richest, but that does not mean that I do not have my own divine beauty that shines beautifully and naturally on the inside and out, so some may be able to paint their beauty, but mine shines throughout me. The best make up I can wear is a smile. :)
• All my dreams and imaginations are possible, and only I am the determiner of how they come to be.
• Trials, sadness, bad days, tears, fights, arguments, anger, they DONT last forever, all it means is a stumble you have on your journey and they best you can do is try to smile and say to myself is that things will get better, and I have a heavenly father always watching me who can always help me in my time of need.
• I REFUSE to sink. I will not the adversary get in my way, I AM a daughter of God, who has a plan for me and I try my best to continues on the best on righteousness. I REFUSE to let other opinions or words let me down. I REFUSE to let trials get the best of me. I WILL stay face forward, with a SMILE, and know that this is my life, and this is who I am, because I REFUSE to sink.

Date To Stand Alone.

Ever since I heard the phrase, "Dare to Stand Alone," From Thomas S. Monson while watching General Conference last October, it has always stuck with me and I find it coming to my mind frequently as I walk through school hallways. It's a great reminder to not worry about being popular or with the crowd, and to not worry of others opinion on you whether it be about your image or religion. I have started less and less to care about others opinion but to care more about what is the best for me and my path of righteousness here on Earth. When I am able to care less about others opinions I can focus more on caring for others and the challenges their facing, and through that I can often find answer a to my own challenges. It is important to remember that even if we feel alone on Earth, we are not, our Heavenly Father is always with us to help guide and lead,. So don't be afraid to be yourself! Don't be afraid to stand for what you believe in. Be different. Be you. And "Dare to Stand Alone!"

Hello....

Ahhh! Im so excited to finally make a blog! Ive always had the desire to, but never took the time to do it. Once I saw one of my friends had made one, I knew I should too! Im excited to share my life adventures and experiences with everyone :) To finish this post off, I wanted to share my inspiration for the title of my blog. "They say I'm a dreamer," a little saying I thought of that could describe me. See, if you are close to me, you know im obessed with Disney, and the message it teaches about dreams.Since I was a little kid, Walt Disney has always been my hero, and his life story ijust find fascinating. I believe we should always go for our dreams and the desire we have for our futures. I thought this title fit me perfectly because, I've always been a dreamer and loved to vision what life could be like, and strive to become that way. A challenge I face is focusing in class, because my mind likes to take me to millions of places, and my teachers somehow manage to always catch me in a gaze, and at night, it can be hard to fall asleep because I think about a million of things. So that is why, "They say I'm a dreamer..." :)